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[Dec. 12th, 2005|05:17 pm] |
This could perhaps be the weirdest thing I will ever say....but I sort of wish I was still at APP.....with Chelsea, Julia, Robyn and Jessy....and those kick ass mountaineers.
I am almost positive that I do not fit in here...not in the slightest. |
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[Jun. 27th, 2005|08:27 pm] |
I really need someone to talk to....preferably a rrrreeealllyyyy trustworthy girl.
Life is so confusing.
Sometimes I can be so logical....other times I am irrational and lack all common sense. |
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[Jun. 19th, 2005|01:53 am] |
I fucking saw someone tonight. Someone who I thought did not matter to me, but then I realized he had too much power in my life. Fuck. It hurts. Goodnight.
When does it stop? |
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[Apr. 27th, 2005|12:40 am] |
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Well, I will be attending UNC Chapel Hill next semester and for quite some time....I hope. I have an aparment (well I room with some people) at University Commons. That means I will be super close to neat people again. Come visit. |
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[Apr. 21st, 2005|03:03 pm] |
So my transfer applications to NSCU and UNC were accepted.
What the hell am I going to do now?
This is scary. |
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[Apr. 5th, 2005|06:30 pm] |
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This is just going to be a rant. Feel free to skip over it.
Gahhh, my professor for Social Problems in America is a total pretentious douche bag. He is always tooting his horn about the actions he takes in order avoid being a slave to corporate America. That is a whole different story. I mean, I don't care who you are....unless you grow your own food, do not pay property taxes, etc... you are 'buying in' to a certain degree. Go ahead, Mr. Morrison, and drink your organic beer (in moderation of course) and love your wife because she is the best person ever (and you never went out with her purely because of physical attraction.) I am sick of everyone in the class eating his bullshit because they want to be 'smart' and he is the only one in their lives who has ever challenged their way of thinking. Fuck that! Maybe this is the wrong class for me, but I've grown up in a household with intelligent parents and I have been questioning everything since I could use my cognitive abilities. The professor assumes we're all shallow, suburban teenagers/young adults spending mommy and daddy's money while getting wasted everyday. He believes we are the future of money-hungry capitalists that don't care about family and are ruining the ever-so-sacred practices of marriage and dating. Apparently, not wanting to get married before age 25 means you do not know yourself and you are extremely selfish. Also, high school dating teaches us only that being together is something physical and once times get tough, it is all over. Then that pattern carries over into marriage when we finally reach 'that age.' I just love how he thinks getting divorced is the most selfish act even though he has never even experienced it. I could go on forever, I just get so angry. He thinks he is above everyone else because he has realized the world has problems and everyone is just looking out for themselves. Newsflash, professor, it has been like this throughout history (maybe not as bad depending on the time and place) and you're not the only one who thinks about it. Stop thinking you are some deep, intellectual human being that is struggling with this unfit world. I thought this class would be informative, but mostly it has taught me that a majority of people are pretty ignorant. |
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[Jan. 21st, 2005|07:49 pm] |
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Ooh she may be weary
And them young girls they do get weary
Wearing that same old shaggy dress
But when they get weary
[You gotta] try a little tenderness
[Tell you, might not believe it, but]
You know she's waiting
Just anticipating
The thing that she'll never, never, possess,no,no
But while [all the time] she's without it
Go to her and try just a little bit of tenderness
[Thats all you gentlemen gotta do]
I feel sick to my stomach. FUCKKKKKKKK!
By the way, whoever told me not to go to ASU was indeed correct. It's cool though, we can still be friends or something. I've already applied for transfers.
Republicans are taking over...I kid you not. They've even gotten to the pot-smoking hippie bullshits.
Ok, maybe that was an exaggeration, but that is what it seems like.
I pretty much slept all day today after a slow night filled with gin and tonics. Nothing productive happened last night or today, besides thoroughly confusing the little rascal at Wendy's.
ETID just came on my iPod...just like the good old times.
Last comment:
I fucking love Otis Redding and you should too. |
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[Aug. 30th, 2004|05:07 pm] |
Wow. I'm here and I am having fun.
There is sooo much walking though. The no a/c dealie isn't too cool either. I will get used to it though. Soon it will be like -22197 degrees. I just changed my schedule so I have no classes before eleven. Ahhhh I am so glad.
I've met a lot of new people. I'm not sure how I feel about it though. I miss all my old friends and I feel that I am very skeptical of the new ones. No offense, but there are a 'shit ton' of hicks here. ahhhhh. Count me out.
The girls in my hall are super loud and annoying. Not to mention, the bathroom always smells like shit.
Oh well, that's college for you.
I never thought I would say it.....but I kind of miss Cary.
I think I am a little homesick, but I am glad to be independent and what not.
jc65590@appstate.edu
use it and stuff. |
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[Jun. 21st, 2004|03:35 pm] |
Ahhh, these last few nights have been extremely weird. I'm totally creepin' out.
I don't know how I feel about things.
My two jobs aren't doing so hot. I only work two days at Daniel's and I guess I'm being phased out at Rudino's. Way to have the boss not even tell me I'm fired or whatever I am.
I have a load of clothes and about 10% of them can be worn at App. I'm screwed.
My hair is super long now. Damn, girl. You should see it!
My birthday is in a month from last night. Yay!!!
I miss people and sorry for being shitty.
We will see what happens with life.
Idle hands spend time at the genitals, and we all know how much God hates that. |
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[Jun. 8th, 2004|10:47 pm] |
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I declare this to be the summer of Jamie[rocksyou]. |
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[May. 31st, 2004|01:15 pm] |
I'm in college.
Is anyone else excited????? |
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[Mar. 15th, 2004|02:30 pm] |
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SPRING BREAK 2k4. JAMIE GONE WILD!!!! Let's get this thing crunk. yeahhhhhhhhh oh kayyyyyyyyy. |
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[Mar. 3rd, 2004|10:36 pm] |
if i exploded: tonight ill stay away long enough to stop breathing, and i wonder how long it will take, before i pass out...........
wE will be goDs: drunkoffnightskies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if i exploded: stop me before i say too much!
wE will be goDs: now I've been alone and its been going
wE will be goDs: but tomorrow might not come
wE will be goDs: if I dont let it
if i exploded: so this is my way of saying -I could be the one who's dragged home at night away from all my hopeless dreams- you and me will forge some future because we don't want to be waiting for something right to go wrong .
if i exploded: 25 mor eminutes until our date. you better be dressed up.
wE will be goDs: i'll take you blindfolded dancing onto bridges and youllsay you dont want to be with me cause no one ever does and no one ever thinks of me that way, But I will even drdive you home if you never let me forget about you and if you promise me that Im good enough for someone cause Ive got to be good enough for you and someday soon I will get it right
if i exploded: Oh great here I go again I'm stuck in this rut and I'm not sure how to begin- should I tell you everything? I'm feeling out of luck so I won't see you soon 'cause I know it's too soon for you to see me. if this is the last thing you do just tell me that it's o.k. for me to have these feelings for you and that it's normal to want to call you. Oh I'm dialing the phone and I'm letting it ring for hours and I'm pretending to hear your voice. Why does my heart always beat before yours does? After a while you can make yourself believe in almost anything, so I'm making myself believe in you.
wE will be goDs: dont leave yet. its still early and I havent even said a word, but Im hoping that I might upset you by saying what I want tocause itts no lik you dont know Ive fallen for you but its in my head and thats where you cant see it and I thought that maybe if I had to bite the tips of my fingers I could stumble over words and tell you just how far before I hit the ground and Im the type to think of all the wrong things to say and I will shut myself up and I'll never come out
wE will be goDs: I will close all my doors and onlyshow you the blackspots wehre my eyes once were. i can say this. i can collect myself ddep down and then come out punching and ill scream out loud
if i exploded: take me I'm yours and I won't have it any other way so don't let fools be carried by what I say because the night keeps looking our way and you're not seeing what I'm missing 'cause I am missing you and I think that we should run as fast as we can into what we don't know - it's time to let me in because I feel just fine.
wE will be goDs: so I said, 'let's forget about these days and just try to build some solid groundmaybe somday we could stand striaght up with our faces in the wind and scream to the world'
if i exploded: We were at some boating dock oh somewhere at the waterfront staring out across the channel - a steamer blared its horn and I wished I could say everything right like do you want to go for a ride?
wE will be goDs: I called you up yto see it maybe we could hang and I told you I was nervous and feeling lonely but I bit my lip and you said yes and I thought of how beautiful the night would be and I though maybe we could drive around talking about your town or we could just stay at hom and I could win over acting cooljust like real romance.
if i exploded: I remembered the fact that I can't see what you need and I'm too stupid to be aware of the beauty that you give this place and how shitty this town would seem without you in it.
I'm crying. (not just because of that, but I am) |
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[Mar. 1st, 2004|12:01 am] |
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Also, a very late Happy Birthday!!! goes out to a very special boy that I have not forgotten about!!! |
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[Feb. 29th, 2004|11:46 pm] |
Jesus god, I am not dead.
Dad is back. He seems to be quite healthy. He has a check up in April. I hope that goes well <3.
Grandpa didn't do so well. I mean, I knew he was going to die in January, but it didn't really get to me until they told me a few weeks ago how it was going to be taken care of. They took him off the feeding tubes and other machines. Can you even imagine? He started to do better to everyone's surprise, so my mother stayed a few more days and with everything looking up....she headed back home. Two days later he was gone. :(
I am doing ok though. I don't know about who knows what, but I am back at Rudino's along with Daniel's. I work two jobs and it gets sort of hectic. Im really not sure where the money is going though. I must stop shopping.
I got fired from Rudino's today because of a mix up on the Friday scheduling. It was the worst feeling ever, even though I really don't care about that job much. A few minutes later I was re-hired on probation. Word. Real smooth talker.
No, I haven't seen the Christ movie. Perhaps we should go sometime.
I am going to start updating more.
I hope all is well with everyone. Call, write, IM. I am still here and I will try to do the same.
Much love, jamie!!!!!!!!!1 |
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[Jan. 25th, 2004|12:53 am] |
Don't call it a comeback!
Mom found it, I hope she is reading this right now!!!!!1
So my dvd collection now includes:
american history x
the labyrinth
secretary
amelie
boondock saints
pretty in pink
donnie darko
the rules of attraction
aqua teen hunger force!
snatch |
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[Dec. 26th, 2003|04:50 pm] |
Well, I hope everyone had a lovely Christmas. I know I talked to some of you. A big sorry to those who I didn't get to wish a Merry Christmas. I had a very decent holiday. Plenty of gifts and food. Mike S. gave me a call and that was quite surprising, since I have made it quite easy to forget about JRY. Thank you <333333. I would also like to know who is going to be in town on New Years?!?
I have been reading a lot lately. I want to start a book club with B Rowe. I finished Choke by Chuck Palahnuik. I'm on my third Bret Easton Ellis novel. I finished Less than Zero and watched the movie. The movie was sort of a let down, but I enjoyed it because of a few things:
1- I am completely obsessed with the 80s.....everything about that decade!!!!1
2-I have a major crush on Andrew McCarthy. (circa the 80s)
3-No one ever throws parties like those in 80s movies. Now why is that?!?
I'm not kidding around when I say that my family is the most dysfunctional family EVER. If I have to stay here for much longer, I think I will have an ulcer or go mental. I am not sure.
Oh dear, time to go listen to some George Michael. |
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